Moonfire's Journal

11:05pm: Hello
Well, it's been awhile so I thought I'd update once again... The only thing I really have to report right now is... I'M GOING AWAY ON TUESDAY!!! WOOT! For those who don't know (can't remember if I posted anything about it or not), I'm going to New York next week for four days and three nights. I'm helping chaperone a high school trip. I can't wait to leave! Once I'm back home I'll try to write up a nice lengthy post about my experience there. Yay skipping the country!

5:04pm: I'm going to be on national tv woot!!
So it was about three hours of shooting and it's only going to be on for about a minute/minute and a half but I'm still going to be on tv LOL!

This year myself, Feliss and Toreishii decided that we were going to go audition for Canadian Idol just for the hell of it. We auditioned on the 26th in Ottawa. We decided that we were going to beat the crowds and go early so we showed up just before the registration started at eight o'clock. After we were registered we got the news that there was a shoot going on that day for the show (one to introduce Ottawa) and that there were forty two places for the first people to register. As such, my posse and I were put on a bus with thirty nine other people and brought to the war museum and then the parliament building to get in front of the cameras with Ben Mulroney. It ended up being a lot of fun even though it was really windy and kinda cold. So, when Canadian Idol comes on the air make sure to watch it so you can spot my gals and me acting like mad fools. LOL!

After that we auditioned and we were all shot down but meh, it's not like we were serious about it in the first place anyway and we all really did have a good time. I also want to take this chance to acknowledge someone who actually did make her way into the competition: The best of luck to you Erinne!

That's all that's new in my life at the moment.

12:38am: Getting caught up
I was just hanging out online and I decided that it was time to read a few of the recent LJ posts from people on my friends list. Sooth, I still do read LJ sometimes. I try to get caught up at least once a week even if I don't post myself.

The other reason I decided to post is the crazy price of gas right now. I knew eventually we'd go up over a dollar but FRIGGIN HELL! Right now it's approximately $1.06 but I was told by the both someone I work with and the gas station lady where I filled up tonight that the price is supposed to go up to about $1.20 by tomorrow. So not cool. When I was talking to my dad about it at home he said that if this continues we're liable to lapse into another depression, which I happen to agree with him about. People just can't afford to commute to and from work anymore. It's so stupid! GRR! When will the frickin' government finally step in?

4:36pm: Why doesn't anything go in my favour?
Seriously, I'm the most unlucky person in the world. I never win anything and then there's the whole job situation which is getting more and more desperate everyday. When you wake up and fantasize that a homicidal maniac would come and take you away thus enabling you to blow off work you know there's a problem. I'm also getting really tired of coming home in tears becaues some power tripping, God complexed some of a fucking bitch, asshole... well you get the point. You all know me, I talk alot, I know I do. Well, at work I talk as I work (Hakumei can vouch for this) but I get the FUCKING WORK DONE! Because I talk, the asshole mentioned above doesn't think that I'm working hard enough and thus works me twice as hard as everyone else. Today I lost it a little bit, not blown out fury but a little more then minute irritation and I kicked a garbage can so that I wouldn't kick a certain person instead. This inspired a "talk" in which I was basically berated for approximately ten minutes. Apparently I'm a terrible employee with horrible work ethic (despite the fact that I've given up days off [oh look I gave up my only day off this week and I agreed to work next Sunday when it's a day I'm supposed to have totally off] to come in and work when they've been short staffed). Sound like a bad employee to you? I take the shit they fling at me and I don't say a fucking word about it and this is what I get. Then, stupid me, I let it get to me. When I should have just let it go in one ear and out the other I let it bother me. When I left I had a few tears brimming but by the time I was on halfway home I was hyperventilating pretty bad and almost had to pull the car over. Please somebody tell me that my bad luck is going to end soon and that eventually I'll know a shred of happiness...

12:07am: The good, the bad, and the ugly
The good:

Grad party went well. Everyone had a lot of fun and laughs. A few people got thrown in the pool and there was much hyperness all around. We also played about two hours of volleyball (I have the bug bites to prove it!) for which the team I was on won the first game and the other team won the second. Our teachers got into it too, my program coordinator was on my team and Dr. Ridal was on the team opposite.
Shifting gears, my parents and I drove to Stittsville today to visit my aunt which was really fun. We did much shopping and ended the day by playing the CSI boardgame. If you don't think boardgames are fun then you've never played them with my family. We were constantly making the characters talk to one another when they came within range of one another. Also, Jim Brass was very drunk throughout the entire game, the poor doll could not stand upright for more then a few seconds at a time. Good times, good times. All in all it was a very relaxing day. That and I think I needed to get out of Cornwall for awhile. It was good to get away. Oh and I'm getting so pissed off with trying to find a job that I think I may skip the country. I'm not joking either, I'm quite serious. Anyway...

The bad:

Going up to visit my aunt it was originally supposed to be just my mom and I but my dad ended up tagging along. I was already pissed off at him by the time we got to my aunt's place and by the end of the day I wasn't the only one. We'll just leave that at that.
Next, NOTE: SEF AND HAKUMEI I'll try to call you guys tomorrow but if I don't get a chance (much running around to do) I'm not sure when we're all going to be able to go to the movies. This week (due to error) I'm working full-time hours, mostly mornings so if we go during the week it will have to be to the early show. Other then that, the first chance I'll get will be Saturday night. I still want to go with you guys though! And finally...

The ugly:

Going back to grad day again I ended up going to Terri's place after the party for a few minutes. There she showed me the baby squirrel that her oldest son had brought home from work. Apparently he found the baby in a destroyed nest and it was the only one still alive. The guys he was with just wanted to squish it but he brought it home and his parents have been looking after it since. Terri told me that when the baby came home it still had its umbilical cord attached and when I saw it, it was still hairless and had its eyes closed. This poor little thing is just so ugly that it's cute and you just have to feel sorry for the little thing.

2:48pm: Well, I'm officially a college graduate
The ceremony was so long and boring. I spent just about the whole time talking to either Mel or Nick on either side of me and tried to ignore as much as possible the drawling voices up front. I got both my Environmental Technician diploma and my General Arts and Sciences diploma. The only thing that I'm a little miffed about is that I missed my honours by 0.006 of a grade point! As if they couldn't just bump it up (honours is 3.5 and I had 3.494). My 'rents are buying me a cd player for my car as a grad gift! No more listening to disintegating tapes for me! Sef and Hakumei came as well and they got me the cutest plush lion (wearing grad cap) and a card (world domination will be mine!). Well, that's all I have to say on the subject. Later peeps!

10:44am: New pic
My avatar dressed up as Yuna. Basically I was bored and sat down with the paint program. Yuna was the first thing that popped into my head. Probably because I was remembering Hakumei's costume for anime north. Male Yuna! *laughs like a fool*

ANYWAY, just thought I'd pop on and say "boo!". Nothing much to report. Gotta go to work soon *cries* but other then that... all is normal. (I can't wait until Friday when I graduate!! Diplomas here I come!)

5:27pm: Retraction
I would like to take back my post from yesterday, it was simply alot of pent up frustration coming out in the wrong way. You guys everything to me and I really don't want to push any of you away.

Quick run down of what's making me so unhappy:

- home sucks
- work sucks
- life sucks

It's just a low point. Pretty soon things will turn around and start going right for me. They have to right? Please just understand and bear with me.

4:53pm: Glad I'm alone
Fuck you all.

8:06pm: Mud Tales... a moonfire and Hakumei adventure
This story takes place on a cloudy and wind riddled day when two young women decided to go on a nature walk.
Hakumei: I like adventure.
moonfire: me too, let's go.
What these two girls did not know was that they were going to have an adventure beyond anything they had expected in the small town of Cornwall.
moonfire: it's all muddy.
Hakumei: follow me this way, it's drier over here. It's not much farther to the lagoon type thing (now known as 'the bog').
The two girls continued walking along the moist path until they came upon 'the bog' (dun dun duuuuuuuuuun). Looking into the depths of the water Hakumei noticed a large moving object towards the center of the pool of water at the center of 'the bog'.
moonfire: wow that's a carp! It's like wabang! big. That's so cool. Let's go over to the other side to get a better look.
Hakumei: ok, I like looking at stuff. Let's go up the hill to get there, it lookes drier up there.
moonfire: But if we stick close to the water where all the vegetation is it shouldn't be too bad.
Hakumei: Let's not chance it. I think we should go up.
Following Hakumei up the hill moonfire started to sink in 'the great boggyness' and yelled, "keep going don't start I'm sinking!". After taking one step and losing her left shoe moonfire then yelled, "my shoe!".
Running farther up the hill to stability moonfire looked back to see both of her shoes lodged firmly in the muck.
moonfire: Hakumei, you're lighter then I am and won't sink as much. Would you get my shoes for me?
Hakumei: Get some rocks to pave the way for me.
moonfire: OK.
Together the two girls gathered enough rocks to create footholds for Hakumei to get the shoes. As Hakumei stepped downt the muddy hillside (each step punctuated with an "A") the rocks began to sink beneath her. When she reached the submerged shoes Hakumei pulled with all her might and was finally able to dislodge them and bring them to safety. After much muddiness and attempts at cleaning moonfire and Hakumei made their sloshy way back to the car where moonfire made Hakumei put her shoes in the trunk before driving off in search of dry, non-muddy clothing and shoes.

That is the story of the stupidity that is us. LOL!

11:45am: I have the worst behaved bunny in the world!
Yesterday when I fed my rabbit I left the top of the cage open while I was filling up his bowl and he jumped out! Now, when he stands on his hind feet and stretches out full he can barely get his nose past the top of the cage so I didn't think he'd be able to jump out just like that. Well, he proved me wrong.

11:37am: Random quiz

Your Japanese Name Is...

Sukey Hayashi

11:32am: What he typed might be a window into his madness...
Feelin' fine.

7:07pm: Jeez....
I don't check LJ for like 4 days and wabang! You guys type way too much LOL! Anyway, I've been keeping busy at my work placement and procrastinting on my ecotoxicology report that's due on Monday (eep, I REALLY need to get that finished off!). Tomorrow for my work placement they're springing me from the office for at least the morning! YAY! No windowless cubicle type thingymabob! It's going well though and everyone seems at least somewhat pleased with my work even if I can't write an effective letter to save my life... but I'm good at the researching stuff! Later peeps! Oh and Steffi, do you know for sure yet whether or not you're coming home for Gramma's birthday?? I hope so!

5:42pm: Why I prefer pets to people...
Note: this does not apply to my LJ posse. I love you guys!

To the list:
1- all it takes to earn a pet's trust is to feed it in a proper routine
2- when you're upset your pets are always there
3- when you make a misake your pets don't make you feel incompetant(or talk behind your back and call you childish)
4- pets aren't pessimistic (it's nice not to have to listen to constant bitching), and
5- you can watch pets and be soothed whereas dealing with people can have the opposite effect

I can't wait until I'm done school and get to get away from these people! I just can't handle the backstabbing anymore, especially from the people I considered friends. Is it right that I should always be worried about what my "friends" are saying behing my back about me? The only thing that gets me through the days is knowing that in another week I will never have to see any of these people again, let them find someone else to blame their inadequacies on, I'm through. I'm just tired of having to constantly walk one step behind and be clued out of conversations when I'm standing right there.

*screams loud enough to be heard as far away as China*

Wish I could say that made me feel better... I think I'll go to bed now...

8:05pm: I have only two things to say...
1) I am now officially done the classes from hell! Now all I have to do is the field course and my work placement and I graduate... O.O that means time for a real job...

2) I pre-ordered the Harry Potter book coming out in July and it only ended up costing me $24!! I LOVE chapters... and a big thank you to Sef for lending me her discount card.

Peace out all!

10:14pm: Since it will still be your birthday for another couple of hours yet...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEN!!!!!!!

8:43pm: Terrible Terrible Day
Today has, for lack of a better word, sucked! First off I couldn't sleep last night so I was awake for good by 4 a.m. That wasn't really too bad because I had to be up for work in a couple more hours anyway but still, two more hours of sleep would have been nice. So fine, I'm awake, I go off to work and when I get there my manager Rob was like, "aren't you working at 11 until 7?" and I'm like "no, the schedule says 7-3". So, he went to check the manager's schedule which had me listed as 11-7 and then he checked the crew schedule which had me listed at guess what! 7-3. Since I was already there though he just let me work the shift that I had showed up for. If he'd sent me home I just would not have come back at all for the day.
When I finally got home from work (late because when Rob works I NEVER leave on time) I was relaxing at home until my grandmother called me. Now, I don't get along with my grandmother very well at the best of times so after an already sorta shitty day I just didn't want to talk to her but I did anyway just I'm just such a nice person. Yeah right! Anyway, it seemed that my dad was supposed to bring her and my aunt out to do some errands but he blew then off without calling so I got stuck doing it. That really did wonders for my mood knowing that I'd just finished an 8 hour work shift and then had to go around with my grandmother and aunt for another hour before I could finally get home for some rest before working on one of my assignments that's due very soon.
At this point my dad finally got home and I tried to get him to go pick my mother up at work for me (since it was by now 6 o'clock and I hadn't started any of the things that I wanted to get done today) but that didn't work. I finally got all settled down to work some on my lab report about 6:30 and just finished up graphing my results directly before I started typing out this post. (In case you're wondering the lab report I'm working on is massive, it took me so long to do the graphing because I had data to organize before I put together the graphs and then again because there were 16 of these graphs to do. I finally finished it though and it looks beautiful. Now if only the computer hadn't mercilessly murdered the word file that I had put all of the graphs into... luckily I still have the original excel file that I organized it all into.)
Umm... now I'm just babbling and complaining so I had better just go... yeah go...

11:53pm: New icon
Just trying it out... aww... isn't little Inu so cute?

11:15pm: Reply to recent comments
Since I've been having trouble replying to people's comments I'll just do it here. Thanks alot everybody for the sympathy and for all the hugs *hugs you all back* it really means the world to me to know what great friends I have even if I don't see you all as much as I would like to. Thanks again.

1:26pm: A quick update before I head off to school to work on a report
This is actually an extention of the update that I posted a few days ago (since it happened the same day I posted). Anyway, a terrible terrible horrible thing happened later that evening that I was totally unprepared for. As I was getting ready to go housesitting with Sef I decided that I should probably clean out my rabbit's cage since he smelled alot. So, after I was all done packing I let my rabbit out to run around on my floor while I cleaned his cage. Fine. Then when I went to put him back in his cage he squirmed out of my arms and broke his back when he hit the floor. Panicking I had my dad and sister take him to the vet's even though it was after hours even though I knew I knew that he was totally paralysed in the back end. After an examination and x-rays my dad then made the decision to have my rabbit put down (a decision I'm glad i didn't have to make). What a great way to start March break! So now not only do I NOT have the pet that I've loved for close to five years but a vet bill for $174.29. Just to add insult to injury.

5:14pm: hello... I'm still out here floating around the void that is the internet...
yeah, I was thinking the other day "hey, I have an LJ account, maybe I should use it more often" then the other me started saying "yeah studpid, why don't you". So... now I'm going to try to see if I can keep to an updating schedule of about once a week. Not so much that y'all get annoyed with me but just enought to let you know that I'm still alive (and reading all of your stuff as well).
Week 1
I'm so very kind of excited right now. Awhile ago I decided that no matter how long it took, and no matter how bad it was that I was going to write my own full length novel. I've been working on and off (around my class schedule) since this past summer and just this week I finished up chapter 5. This is really exciting to me because when I was about 8 I wanted more then anything to write a novel. I even started writing some crappy ass vampire story (which wasn't that scary considering that I was 8 at the time) and continued for quite some time on it before I lost it and then just forgot. Anywho, things is going's grood, I mean good, and great! Now y'alls can go ahead and laugh at me if you like but I'm enjoying myself and feeling good about having accomplished something.
The blurb about school:
It sucks. However, I'm looking forward to doing my work placement now that everything is all sorted out with that. I guess I get to work with the city on their Browsfield project which should be pretty cool. Brownsfields is a project that's more or less concerned with land remediation. No office jorbs for me! Yee hee! For now, I had better concentrate on the many reports that I havea to writa. If I'm careful I might yet pull off my 3.5 GPA. Here's hoping anyway.
Conclusion:
I'm pathetic
Later yo!

7:29am: STRESS!
I know it's been like forever since I've updated so here goes...

You guys would not believe the total BS that's going on at school right now. Sef knows all about it because I constantly bitch about it but the rest of you don't really know too much. Well, first things first, you all know that I'm not a stupid person but I am totally failing (if not failing then just passing) my hydrogeology class! This class is so stupid, we do nothing but crazy physics and engineering stuff, like we need to know it in the first place. The clincher is that about 90% of the class is at a fail right now, not just me. Tell me that doesn't sound wrong. As a class we've cornered this guy and said "Yo, we don't understand, and why do we need to do this anal stuff anyway?" but not in those words. We should get the test that we just wrote on monday back tomorrow. That brings me to my second point. This test we had on Monday was brutal. I knew what I was doing but did not have nearly enough time to finish the damn test. He assured us, "it's only four questions long, you guys will be done in no time". An hour and fifteen minutes later he forced us to quit writing because not one single person was done the test. Myself, I was only finished two questions with little bits and pieces of others scattered here and there. It was insane. We talked to our coordinator about that and she had one thing to say "I hope everyone failed, then it'll be an easy issue to deal with." Not good stuff. GRRR.... and I thought analytical chemistry was going to be my bane. Shows what I know.

On a brighter note, wait, there is no brighter note... shit...

Well, time for me to go work on that report that we tricked our teacher into giving us an extra three days for... we're evil...

Later, and I hope that all my friends out there that are still in school are having a better time then I currently am.

1:21am: Since I haven't updated in awhile....
Just to let everybody know that I still live, though most unhappily at the moment. I can't get over what happened to me today so I have to write down all my bitching so others can join in my fury.
About five minutes towards the end of my work shift my boss (reject loser from hell) took me aside for a little "chat". It took him approximately fifteen minutes to tell me that I'm a horrible employee. He kept going on and on about how my productivity is low and my attitude has changed. He said something about "all of the managers have been noticing the same thing". To cap it all off he as good as told me to find a new job or as he put it "maybe it's time to move on". Those who know me well know that when I get super pissed if I can't yell I cry so low and behold I started to cry (no matter how much I willed myself not too). I just hope that the son of a bitch felt bad.
I did have a little consolation though. On my way out Felicity saw how upset I was and told me that she was "going to kill that fucker". Also, when I was out in the parking lot Jen said she was tempted to slash his tires but decided to put her lit cigarette butt under one of his tires instead. Didn't accomplish anything but the sentiment was touching. At least some people love me.
Other then that there hasn't been alot going on in my life. Looking forward to going on vacation with my 'rents at the end of next month though! I'm taking two weeks off of work to go so that means no jackass for fourteen lovely days. Can't wait!
Well, I'm feeling rather creative right now so I'm going to put some of that pent up fury to use. Later all!

4:54pm: A link for Hakumei...
check it out, you'll get a kick out of it.

http://www.luckystarscattery.com/Potter.swf